Monday thoughts

Monday. Yes, it's Monday again. Yes, again. Filled with dread, wondering what sort of boredom will befall me this week. Or what sort of disaster may erupt in my face. Monday. Joyful.

It doesn't help that I have no eye-candy to appreciate at work. :P Ah the joys of working for a company filled with old(er) people.

I don't normally socialise with my colleagues. With the the exception of a few. Most people here are married with family. Well, I did go for a housewarming cum Deepavali open house last Saturday night. Come to think of it, it was the first time I attended any social gathering with colleagues involved. Well, I have a wedding to attend 2 weeks from now, my partner in crime (at work that is :P) is getting married. She's 23. So that will likely be my second social gathering involving colleagues.

It really doesn't help that most of them have a spouse (or 2 :P) and some with kids to boot. I was the only one that walked in alone. And as usual the questions were asked. And I just love answering, in front of their partners, 'Oh, I'm not into living in dungeons' or 'Haha, why would I want to imprison myself like you?'.

And it doesn't help that I'm on a different wavelength with them. I can't discuss the latest books I read with them. I can't go into a discussion on Japan's role in East Asia this century. I can't ask about the concept of natural justice versus codfied laws with them. I can't learn from them, much.

I can of course talk about suburbia matters, sometimes. Such as housing loans. Or cars (but not the economics of our automotive industry though). Or the state of education in our country (but not the role of student politics, or relevance of the national-type primary schools).

And there aren't any, yup, you read that right. Not a single young person I know in the company have the same concerns as I do. Or the same interest. I know enough to talk about their concerns or interest. But I'm careful not to say too much, I was told it can be overwhelming :P They probably think I'm weird anyway.

I'm not saying those concerns or interest are below me. Most of them are nice people. Of course I do think about my ability to buy a home or my lack of dates (none at all actually :P) at the moment or football. But there's so much more to life. There's some much more to it than bringing the bacon home and watching TV. Or so I would like to believe. Fool's paradise some say. But I refuse to be shackled by norms. I want to find myself. My voice. My dreams. And it won't be only be the Malaysian dream of 2.5 kids, a MPV and a double-storey link house and a steady job with good medical benefits.

It is about finding what I love. About searching for a cause I can give myself to. It is about passion. And it's going to be a long, exciting journey :)

For now, I gotta search my phonebooks for my next, long overdue date :P, if any.