Friday, December 17, 2004

The Countdown Begins

It wasn't too long ago when 2005 looked like a distant future, that surely won't come yet. Now it's only 14 days away. I'm quite delighted with how I have come out stronger this year. I guess the saying that what won't kill you will make you stronger has some truth afterall.

It has been a very very mixed year. And it was a year occupied with plenty of soul-searching, a period of mild depression, exam suprises, a broken heart (yes I have a heart :P), boredom, learning that friends aren't what they seem to be and stagnation at work. It has also been a year of meeting wonderful new friends, progress in studies, recognition of my progress in all aspects, finding a semblance of a direction (still blur but it's a start) in life, new opportunities careerwise to build on.

I've come a long way, it seems almost surreal that I'm this old. And
surreal that 2004 is ending. It still feels like it hasn't been too long when I was a lot more carefree, taking joyrides all over the place and actually having this big supportive social circle. Now, even when surrounded by people, I sometimes feel lonely, disconnected. I guess nearly 4 years of work has taken its toll, causing some divergence in my thoughts with that of my friends (but come to think of it, it has always been quite different). I'm still with my practical idealism (major oxymoron? :P) and doing things the right way, and doing things for the right reason way of life.

So, yes, it has been a good year. A good year is the kind that will make you smile and feel a tinge of sadness. And eventful year, it has been, emotionally. I'm now looking forward to a great 2005.

8 Comments:

At December 17, 2004 9:59 am, Blogger Jason Mulgrew said...

intense!

love,
jason mulgrew
internet quasi-celebrity

 
At December 17, 2004 11:26 pm, Blogger iblogme said...

Now, why can't you talk the way you blog with me? *laughs* Poignant post. May the year 2005 bring you greater self-growth and discovery. And you are NOT old. :P

 
At December 18, 2004 12:29 am, Blogger Resurrected said...

jason : not really that intense!

iblogme : hey what do u mean? :) i can't be so reflective everyday, might end up being depressed and requiring Prozac prescription. and i'm old, at least that's how i feel relatively at the moment, looking back.

 
At December 18, 2004 9:48 pm, Blogger iblogme said...

Resurrected, haha. One can be reflective and thoughtful without getting bitten by the depression bug. :)

 
At December 18, 2004 10:59 pm, Blogger Resurrected said...

iblgme : December is the worst for me. I go into this melancholic mood every year end :P And this is the worst that I can remember. Tell you when we chat soon.

 
At December 20, 2004 8:31 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey you, your bday coming up kan. you know how bad i am with dates (yup, those kinds too) so can you remind me again when excatly is your hehehe..

camel chasing in bahrain

 
At December 20, 2004 11:11 pm, Blogger Resurrected said...

camelchaser : I miss you! When are you coming home?
You terrible person, I just told you a few weeks ago!
Tell you in email lah :P

 
At December 22, 2004 8:48 pm, Blogger Saffron said...

Wowness. Now I have to slink away and think about my life, which at this moment I don't think amounts to much. Thankfully I have loads of codeine, muahahaha.

Good luck in 2005. :)

 

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